Hi, how's everyone? Suffocating under an avalanche of existential dread and despair? Me too! Is that the human factory setting now?
I haven't been writing at all, in any way shape or form. It's a fallow period, both because work is keeping me super busy (in a good way) and because, well, see: first sentence. I have a plan to force myself back on track in the new year, and I tend to be diligent about following through on these types of plans but right now I'm letting my brain slip into holiday mode, or at least vacation mode for a few days.
Despite everything percolating in the worldwide shitpot, I got hit with a wave of Christmas spirit on my drive into the office this morning. "Feliz Navidad" came on and I was cozy and drinking some good coffee and thinking about how HR's winter break starts in a few hours and I got this warm feeling, sort of giddy and content at the same time, and I allowed myself to feel hopeful and excited for the first time since... I mean, I put up my tree after Thanksgiving and I've been chasing that elusive feeling to no avail. All the bad and heavy stuff is still here, but it was so nice to have it pushed out to the edge of my consciousness, to get a hit of pure joy, if for five minutes.
I still don't know what's happening moment to moment, so I'm doing my best to take them as they come. Stay safe, everyone. Sending you all a shot of joy and love, on me.
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