I care about people, but I don't care anymore what people think of me, on the whole. I only care that my kid will grow up knowing that his mother is on the right side of history. That she is in the process of unlearning her own racism and doing something about changing the system. That she calls out what isn't right on no uncertain terms. So I'm ANTIFA and I'm liberal scum, come at me.
I wasn't going to write in here this month, but I need to be loud and this is where I am the loudest.
The fact that Black Lives Matter needs to be screamed at emergency-fire level every second of every day and still... and still. Look, I can't tell you how to be but if you think you're not racist and it doesn't make you want to break something when you hear that yet another Black life is taken by someone in authority without meaningful consequence or the slightest stride toward lasting, systemic change, at the very base level, you are ok with the rigged system as it is. That's racism. Name it. Face it. Change it.
I'm not here to teach or preach though, the humanity is right out there in everyone's face and if people don't see it, I don't see how I'd be the one to flip that switch for them. I'm only making my voice heard. The voice of a person who wants better not only for the next generation but NOW. I'm demanding a better world now, for my kid and for everyone's kids, and I can give you details on how I'm personally working toward one if you want to know. I'm not perfect and I have a lot to learn but for me it's better to fuck up loudly than quietly do nothing.