So anyway laws are meaningless and democracy is a dodo and consequences don't exist for those in power. Did I leave anything out? Seriously, what's the point, then? What even is the point? I'm more disheartened today than I've been in just about any time in the past year, and that's saying a lot. It's hard to not feel utterly conquered. What I'm going to write is not going to impart any kind of hopeful note for the future of this country. Not today. I'm sure I'll go into outraged resistance mode soon enough, but for the moment the wind has been knocked out of me. That's not good. That's letting them win. I know it. I just... Fuck a duck, people.
I DO have great news in my own personal life, which is that HR has graduated out of his IEP and no longer requires separate OT sessions at school, and that's really exciting for us as a family and for his progress. Every time we think of moving away, and it can be tempting if only for what we know our crazy house is worth these days, it comes back to how amazing the school system is in our 'hood and how we lucked into it. We can't deprive him of the experience of an educational environment that has only shown to lift him up. He is thriving and happy, and that's a bright spot of life. I'm trying not to let it be tainted by everything else.
That's the theme of my life right now: trying not to let this administration intrude on every moment and spoil everything that's good. It's hard to celebrate a single thing without remembering, oh, this is what's going on. On one hand it's a positive thing to keep the awareness right at the surface, to keep the blood singing for a fight, but on the other hand, it's just so awful. I'd say the ratio of misery is 1:1 for every waking minute of calm or happiness. I know for sure I'm not alone, and I know for SURE for sure that if it's this bad for me, a relatively privileged member of society who can choose to look away and shut it out if I want to, it's hell on earth for a lot of others. This. Is. Madness.
I'm a broken record and I will play and play and play until I shatter or until somebody listens.