After all that heaviness, it's time for the annual "I'm on vacation, bye-eee" post. A Very Good Thing, I think.
I am not a person who would ever say "I need a vacation." "I deserve a vacation." I don't have a very stressful life. I'm not diggin' for coal or scrubbing toilets or doing brain surgery. My life is always fairly chill, for the most part. But I would never NOT take a vacation on those grounds. I'll take any vacation I get the chance to take. I don't think there's anything noble in denying oneself the opportunity to relax and have fun. I never understood people who took pride in how many years it's been since they had time off when there's no actual reason for it. There's no medal for that at the end of life, unless the ability to complain about it is reward unto itself. This particular victory I am not interesting in knowing.
Of course, it will be an awesome and healthy thing to take an extended break from all technology. To have a little distance from work and the situations that bring me down there. To have time to really really focus on my family. To be in nature. To party-us maximus. But even as I am so so so psyched to blow the old 6 o'clock whistle tomorrow and tell the workaday world to kiss my grits, I don't have a sense that I'm entitled to or earned this time off outside of putting in my hours to get paid to be on the beach. I just really really want to do it and I am so happy that I get the chance.
All that said, this particular vacation also counts as my once-a-year spiritual recharge journey. No, I'm not really spiritual, but I'm not completely dead inside. Breathing the air, feeling the love, washing in the waves. It is good for everybody once in awhile, and I feel it resets my brain and heart. This will be a very strange and sort of sad year as this is the first time in my life that I'll be on the island without my Memere. But we knew it would happen someday, and I do feel like all of us being there together in her favorite place will be the most fitting celebration of her life we could have.
This space will be radio silence for awhile. I won't miss it. I won't even think about it at all. It doesn't mean it doesn't fill an important purpose in my life. Just that vacation world is completely separate and there are no blogs in vacation world. There is only this.